Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Thanksgiving planning.
Screw it.
Already I have lack of Manpower, now we have to present on Thursday.
You think students are Gods?
I have half the class under me.
Whats the point of having half of it when only 6 people helps?
Where the fuck are the rest?
If you don't do your part, I'm the one taking the blame.
Taking the responsibility.
I'm the one who has to wipe you ass for you when questions are being thrown at me.
Why good do I have to do all these shit?
What good does it do to me taking blames for this group of
uncooperative people?
Am I recognised for my work? Have I any gain?
I understand that stress is unavoidable.
I'm just fucking pissed that I'm the only one stressed and the rest of you are happy doing shit.
What did I do to deserve this.
Why do I just see me stressing over this.
Why can't you fucktards cooperate and do what you are told to do?
I feel like I'm being condemned.
When I do good, no one sees it or appreciates it.
When I just do something bad, its the end of the damn world.
Why Do you all only see the goods of others. Why never me?
Why do I see everyone else being appreciated, being rewarded with their desires.
Why never me?
I often wish someone sees my good deeds and praised me once in awhile.
Now I realised I craved something that could never happen.
Never in curriculum, Never in Cca.
In retrospect, maybe I should have led an easy life.
You know, slack off in school work, Cca and everything.
I've learnt something important today.
Why work so hard, when you have nothing else to gain, other than nothing.